Out of the depths I cry...

This seems an apt prelude when we are still not healed - in the body, mind, spirit or even materially! The title is taken from the first verse of Psalm 130.

"Out of the depths I cry to you, O Lord; O Lord, hear my voice. Let your ears be attentive to my cry for mercy."
I am in the depths - not just low, but really in the depths... Like a bottomless pit or the ocean floor. I acknowledge I need help. I can't get out on my own... I know You can help me. I don't deserve you to listen to me, but please listen! I am crying - for mercy (for I well deserve the pit, I got myself into it). Yet, please, pay close attention to me, to my cry for mercy!
"If you, O Lord, kept a record of sins, O Lord, who could stand? But with you there is forgiveness; therefore you are feared."
I have done plenty of wrongs. If you keep a record and punish me for it, I can't even survive - none of us humans can. But dear God, Your heart is forgiving. That is what gives me hope... That is what makes me reverence You and keeps me from rebelling against You.
"I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope. My soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning."
I am so helpless Lord, there is nothing else I can do but wait... so hard-pressed, I wait for You to answer me, waiting, waiting, waiting... for this ordeal to be over, waiting like the night watchman waits for the morning, to put his shift behind and go home. Lord, I too want to put this behind me, put the dark night of the pit behind and walk out into the sunshine, into daylight once more... like going home...
"O Israel, put your hope in the Lord, for with the Lord is unfailing love and with him is full redemption. He himself will redeem Israel from all their sins."
If your heart is heavy and your spirit is down, at the bottom of the bottomless pit or the floor of the deepest ocean, put your name there substituting it for the word 'Israel' and read it again...
Lord, I put my hope in You, in Your unfailing love - for though I do not deserve and I always seem to fail, You are unfailing and You are ever-loving, not counting my sins against me... So I put my hope in You - not in myself, not in my education, not in my career, not in my money, not in my family, not in my friends or anything or anyone else. I put my hope in You. You alone can redeem me. I cannot redeem myself. You will redeem me. I will wait and hope - not because of my goodness, not because of my love for You but because of Your love for me.